Debt

I came back from school,
threw my bag on the couch,
one sock and water bottle,
created mayhem in the house,
had lunch and went to play
never thought even once to stay,
ask Ma, how was your day..

I wasn't able to share the joy,
when you brought me in the world,
I wasn't able to share the pain,
when you brought me in the world,
but I want you to make me puddings
On my Birthday..

when you needed me the most,
I wasn't around,
I was seeing my first girl,
see Ma, I was duty bound.
When you wanted me to stay near,
I stayed away
taking you for granted,
was the order of the day..

I was sleeping, when you tried waking me up,
Pa wasn't well, needed some medicines,
when I woke up,
I saw them on his tray,
realizing that you went alone,
in a place completely unknown.
I feel gutted thinking of it till this day.

you were sad when Pa beat me,
you were sad 'cos you couldn't stop him,
you were sad, when I didnt do well in exams,
staying awake with me at night before exams,
didnt work, it seemed..
but when the results were out,
I hadn't done bad at all,
seems you had more faith in me,
than me in myself afterall

The assurance you gave,
the confidence you gave,
the lap i had,
to hide the loser in me.

I come back yet again,
but no one asks me for lunch,
no one tells me there are puddings to munch..
All i find is someone who used to give me a hug,
lying on the matted turf,
I want to believe its untrue,
but I get the assurance,
of shattered confidence..

I lie besides you for the last time,
feeling that my pain is
less than the joy you had,
when I was put besides you for the first time.
but then there was an arm to hold me,
but now you don't even see me....

This about a son, who always took his mom for granted, but realizes his deeds when she is no more...